"The White Nuns" Copyright (c) 2015 by Andrea Missianto |
As I waited in the Southwest Airlines
line to check my bag, I caught a glimpse of a white veil behind me. I
turned around. I just had to. Of course, I said “hi” and
even correctly guessed her community, a community I know pretty well
here in San Antonio. I told her my name, which I hope she remembered,
but I also thought “I used to be one of you”.
Sister, I used to be one of you.
Like you, I used to have random strangers approach me and strike up
conversations, just like I did with her this morning. People would
tell me wonderful stories about Sisters they knew in their childhood
that changed their lives or they'd talk to me about their struggling
faith or we'd try to see if we knew the same people. Now, I've become
one of those strangers.
In my last blog entry, I mentioned the
Daughters being a missionary itinerant community. They were also a
community that traveled. A lot. Even if we weren't being missioned,
we were traveling for retreats, for meetings, for conferences, for
everything. I traveled to states I've never lived in and never
visited since.
A few minutes later, as I passed
through security, I thought of the Sister again. I didn't see her in
the security line but her experiences are probably the same that I
had for years.
Sister, I used to be one of
you. I would rip off my coiffe (veil) and put it in the bin. One
airport asked me to, so I always did since. Some TSA officers seemed
shocked - “no, Sister, you don't have to take it off! It's
religious garb!” “No, it's okay”, I told them. But,
almost without fail, no matter the city, I was pulled aside after
X-ray and patted down. Once because of the cross but usually because
of that long skirt.
Sister, I used to be one of you.
Like you, I used to be a silent witness. I know some Sisters were
bothered by the extra time we spent in security but the truth is I
never minded. Let TSA do what they need to do. But, more than
anything, I wanted to wear my habit to the airport. I wanted people
to know that young Sisters, “young nuns”, still existed. Even if
they never approached me, just a glance of me would hopefully remind
them of good things – of faith, of goodness in the world, of
service, of love. Hopefully remind them of more than just nuns with
rulers...which I unfortunately did hear about time to time.
And it was more than the veil, by the way, lest anyone think I'm starting a debate. Even Sisters without habits have a “nun” look. I can point them out from a mile away and would have done the same this morning with an un-habited Sister too.
And it was more than the veil, by the way, lest anyone think I'm starting a debate. Even Sisters without habits have a “nun” look. I can point them out from a mile away and would have done the same this morning with an un-habited Sister too.
Sister, I used to be one of you.
But I'm not anymore.
Now I am a random stranger in the
airport, traveling to who-knows-and-who-cares-where.
Now, I blend in.
Now, I'm now free to sit and read my
book or sleep leaning against the window, two things I missed about traveling
when I was a Sister.
Nonetheless, I may be able to finish my book but take off the veil, take off
the title of “Sister”, take off the religious community's
initials, and being a witness of faith, goodness in the world,
service and love becomes a whole lot harder. Not just in the airport but in life. It's no longer obvious, no longer
implied by my very lifestyle – but it's not something I'm willing
to abandon. It's still something I want to remind the world.
So, Sister, in that way, I'm still
just like you.
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